I'm scared...

I'm terrified of loosing you, not being able to be in your presense. Afraid too never see you again and you start heading down your road. I'm scared that I'm not going to be able to see you again. I'm afraid too say anything because I might just make you run away. I've only felt your kind words, and read your thoughts about things. I wanna go deeper, but since the difference between us, I don't know how that's ever possible. It maybe the last time I will ever see you. Just thinking about it makes me wanna cry, our last time seeing each other, our last conversation, our last time ever making eye contact. I wanna be able to hold you in my arms even just for a quick second, because a second of that could be imprinted in my mind and that can last forever. You put smiles on my face when you don't even know you do. Your so cute, and adorable, I wish my future boyfriend would look just like you and and have the same attributes also. Your flaws is what makes you perfect :). I wanna go out with you and just spend time together, just us two, I don't care if all were ever gonna be is friends, because I'd rather be your friend than nothing. I'm still shy towards you, I get all choked up, I avoid making eye contact because I might get lost into your eyes. Your so loving and concerning. Man, why can't you just be bi or gay? You'd be such the perfect boyfriend for me, and I'd be the perfect boyfriend for you. I hope there's a guy like you out there for me. I highly doubt there is. But one last thing, I wish you can promise that you won't ever leave me...