Let's spill some words eh? :).

2010 came in, and I am glad that I am content. Well actually more than that. I actually feel happy about my life now. I used to mope and be depressed, think of things that would hurt myself and my heart. But I really don't wanna go down that path anymore. 2009 for me consisted of somewhat fake smiles, making people happy and making sure that no one see I was really hurt, and I was really struggling to avoid "Love." I was glad only one person saw what was really happening, I did not want anyone to worry about me. I gotta say I did crave attention for people because it made me feel good, but sometimes, it was really unnecessary. I made those Numbered boyfriends because they had an asset to them that I would want in my real boyfriend. And everyone who knew me knew who were my Boyfriends #1-9 did. All of the were straight, except for #9, he was an exception. But I broke up with all of them one day because I felt like I was constricting myself from the other people who had an eye on me.


Ever since then I've been growing. 2009 was all emotional and happy Francis. But towards the end of the year, I was actually doing great :). All of 2009 I was supported with friends and good times. And school! That is what mostly took my attention away from all the boys because I would put school and friends first. This blogging thing makes me really happy :).


Now, back 2010. My heart is still guarded up, all day everyday. I'm waiting, and because I also have a great feeling about 2010. :). Make me smile kay? Ya feel me? Haha!


Please excuse my grammar mistakes, when I blog, I really do not go back to see if I had made mistakes.